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26 December 2009

So here it is. Not eating healthy, not exercising for weeks, working non stop, not eating breakfast and some days not even eating lunch. Everyday eating after 7pm even as late as midnight.

So. I'm done! I am not the person that loses 95lbs only to gain it all back. I have a shoot today and Monday and I work at our church nursery tomorrow, then I am taking some time off. I need to. The dr says I have an ulcer. I have never had an ulcer. I cant fit into any of my 10's only my 12s. More than the weight gain I just look and feel frumpy and like crap.

I have to remember to take care of myself. We are in the thick of the adoption right now and everything is going so fast. I will have fundraisers starting in January to try to raise the rest of the 16,000. plus travel.

My husband who has been out of work for a month has several calls from people wanting to hire him. I think that has been a big part of my weight gain. All I do all day long is work, if I am not shooting then I am editing and editing means sitting on the couch with the laptop. I have food brought to me bc I have shoots that need to get out. He has been cooking and cleaning and taking care of the kids. Our roles have been reversed and I HATE IT! I want to take appointments not because I have to to pay the bills but because I would like to.

So today I am off to the natural store to get a cleanse to cleanse my body of all the crap I have been eating and crap I did to myself. Then I am going to start exercising today. Maybe slowly, even if its a 15 min 1 mile walk with leslie sansone. I think I make my goals to big like 1 hr a day of exercising then I get upset I dont make it so I quit. Last night I did not eat after a certain time, forget the time but am going to try to do that all week and also try to eat bfast.

Goals

I dont think I will make a weight goal this week. I need to get healthy so goals.

Cleanse
Eat bfast
exercise a least 15 mins a day
no eating after 8pm.
Drink more water! (I have been drinking 16oz a day at most, and not drinking anything else but maybe 4oz of coffee)

Weight:	Lost so far:	Still to go:	Diet followed:
79.7 kg	35.5 kg	8.1 kg	Poorly

(6 comments) Gaining 1.2 kg a Week

10 December 2009

Life happened. I stopped nursing and now my hormones are all crazy. I have about 2 lbs or more of boobs right now. We are in the middle of a homestudy for our adoptions. I am also on my T O M. I have no exercised due to all of this and laziness. I did exercise Tuesday night with my friends. But not an hour a day like I had planned. I am failing miserably right now. I am out late every night bc my daughter have play practice, I have been so busy with photoshoots that I am up until 1 every morning editing and getting the pictures ready for the customers. Im not sleeping, drinking or eating like I should. I decided to not take any appointments or even look at my computer the week of christmas. Life will stop that week for me and I will do things I want to do, exercise eat better and breath. Rest and breath oh that sounds so wonderful. So anyways hopefully then I can lose a few pounds of boob and belly. Hope you are all doing much better than me.

Weight:	Lost so far:	Still to go:	Diet followed:
77.1 kg	38.1 kg	5.4 kg	Reasonably Well

(2 comments) Gaining 0.6 kg a Week

04 December 2009

Still no loss, could be the m&ms I had last night but really there has been no real excuse for not having a little loss. I mean I am not overeating, I was exercising. I dont know.

News today on our one little girl we are trying to adopt. She was fitted with a hearing device and is now not afraid, happy and exploring her world around her with all the new sounds. She also was given one on one personal care which they say both is rare for over there. The adoption agent was shocked, my 8 yr old said I know why she got that mom because I prayed for her. Oh faith like a child is a beautiful thing. So our one daughter(if I may be so bold to call her that)can hear, Praise God.

I am trying very hard to get everything else done fast so they can come home. I send the first deposit Monday, then I need to take my passport pictures and get them turned in then I need to find a place that will do a homestudy and get that booked. I firmly believe the money will come.

Well I dont think I will get around to exercising but I did shoot all day so that has to count for something, plus I cleaned.

Have a very blessed night.

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02 December 2009

To be honest I am a bit bummed. I have not gained or lost and have been working out at least one hour everyday for 5 days now. I guess I have to figure out whats going on. I wasnt eat at night, but did last night, not much though. I have been having 2 cups of coffee a day, maybe that is doing it, I dont know. I was thinking maybe my calories havent been high enough but then I didnt put them all in so I dont know. I will try to keep better track today.

So, some news...

My husband and I have been praying for about a month now for this one situation that came about and yesterday we finally made a decision. We have decided to try and adopt 2 girls from Russia. Shleby is 3 and Faith is 10 months old. They are both deaf and blind. They were both preemies, Shelby at 35 wks and Faith at 27 weeks. Shelby is only 19lbs now. It is a horrible situation over there.

I believe God ask us to do this and He has confirmed it so as unprepared financially we are He ask us to trust Him and do this and I will. So for those of you who know Jesus and pray could you please keep my family in your prayers. It is not going to cost as much as we thought and hoping the price goes down even further but as of right now I estimate it at around 28000.00 That does not count the trips to Russia. They said it may be up to 6 trips because the girls are in 2 separate parts of the country.

I know my God is able. The Bible says we are to take care of the widows, orphans and fatherless, not that it is some good deed but something that is required of us.

I know this is going to be hard, to say the least. I am not in denial as to how much work and how many hospital visit it will be. Some moments come and I get so terrified I start to cry out to Jesus. I just have to put my faith in Him and trust that Paul and I can do this. We can do all things through Christ who strengthens us.

This is not the plan I had for my life but if this is God's plan then I imagine it will be so much better than anything I could have dreamed.

So that is whats going on with my family. Not sure why the weightloss hasnt happened but my body is looking a little better. NO big huge belly like I had been having. I am going to try and do maybe the walk away the pounds and something else something different. If you have any good workout suggestions I would love to hear them. Know this about me though, I dont like hard stuff, like confusing I mean. I find Denise Austin annoying, lol, and want something that I wont throw up during or quit. Thanks

I hope you all have a blessed day.

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30 November 2009

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