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Good afternoon FS friends
Slept in today. A rare occurence as since starting weight loss in March of 2023, I generally wake up between 5 and 6 AM (without an alarm clock). Today I woke up at 4 and figured it best to go back to bed and proceeded to sleep until 9:30AM. Head is foggy but haven't used sleep aids at all in a couple of weeks.
Probably an emotional hangover from yesterday. Day started out well, went to physio (the left drop foot isn't improving at all). Figure I must have done some damage the day John died as I didn't adhere to any hip precautions at all. The acetabulum that was wired together in 2017 "burns".
Got home, got dressed to go do yard work when the phone rang. They were asking for John. Turns out it was the home care team trying to book an appointment. They had not been advised that he'd passed. Monday the 22nd would have been his last day of treatment which is why they would have called now. So I cried. Shortly after that another call came in. A lovely lady who was my hospital roommate when my acetabulum fracture was repaired and we've stayed quite close since then. More tears. Then got another call from a lady I became friends with in Toronto. An avid gardener who lost her husband 5 years ago. More tears from both of us. Then John's brother showed up and we were going through old pictures. You guessed it. More tears. Felt like I'd been hit by a Mac truck by the end of the day and still do.
Funny how the silence of late has been overwhelming and then BAM more human interaction than I can bear in one day.
Tired of crying. Wish I had a normal appetite again. Haven't used Ozempic in 6 weeks, so the appetite suppression has nothing to do with that. Totally emotional. Am eating though, as the body needs fuel. Everything tastes like sawdust.
Today will be a better day
Over and out
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1183 kcal
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Fat: 39.17g | Prot: 106.77g | Carbs: 109.01g.
Breakfast: GNC Wheybolic Classic Vanilla, Orgain Organic Protein Plant Based Protein Powder Creamy Chocolate Fudge. Lunch: Great Value Frozen Mixed Berries, Kirkland Signature Unsweetened Almond Milk, Good Protein Inc. All-in-one Superfood Shake, Hormel Turkey Pepperoni Stix, Gatorade G2 Perform 02 - Grape (20 oz), Lactantia 18% Table Cream. Dinner: Renee's Gourmet Mighty Caesar Dressing, Everything Veggie Salad, Marc Angelo Souvlaki Pork Sirloin Kabobs, Skotidakis Tzatziki. Snacks/Other: Sweet Cherries (Queen Anne, Bing). more...
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