Annisworkingonit's Journal, 06 Jul 24

Good morning FS friends

The rest of yesterday was busy. Once the electrician left I headed out to pay the plumbing bill. From there off to the pharmacy to pick up BP meds, but my GP hadn't refilled the prescription. Thankfully the pharmacist fronted me enough for another 6 days. Showed him my infected shin which I bashed the day John passed. Don't ask me how as that part of things is a blur. Our pharmacists can prescribe meds for certain conditions but in this case he couldn't. So off to the walk in clinic. 2.5 hrs later, yup infection, so started on a course of antibiotics for a week.

My hope is that resolving that will help the left foot which has now developed drop foot as well. Odds are though that in the flurry of movement that happened when John was passing, I moved in inapproprite ways that were bad for my prosthetic hip and injured myself. Physio is now working on both feet/legs and am doing the exercses for both as well. The good news is that the right foot is improved. Kind of pisses me off though as I'd finally regained full mobility and wham. Now I walk like a gimpy show pony.

So today marks 21 days since the unfortunate event. The morning is equally sunny and gorgeous as it was on that day. Still cannot grasp the reality and part of me expects his truck to come driving in, yet his ashes are here with me in the river room. Such a mental disconnect.

Next week I have an intake interview with a psychologist specialising in trauma and bereavement. My hope is that he accepts me as a patient and that come fall he allows me to participate in a one of the many grief groups that he leads.

Meanwhile, one interminable day at a time.

Thank you for your support guys. Knowing I'm not an abandoned island in the middle of a great big ocean does help. Particular thanks to YOH, Morticia and Shelo.

Over and out

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Awwww it’s always something. That’s been my experience toooooooo. One step forward a half a step back. Such is life. You are doing well and im so glad you are seeking support in your grief with a specialist. Xoxo darlin 
06 Jul 24 by member: Yearofhealth2023
I think seeing the psychologist is an excellent idea and I will pray that he accepts you and that he can help things to be easier for you. I think you are doing well though. especially after what you had to go through in such a short period of time. I had to experience it as a nurse many times and I always felt that a little of my heart was taken away with every passing. Some things you learn to live with but you don't ever forget. Real love isn't something that goes away. John is part of your heart and mind. I hope your injury and medical problems heal up soon! Hugs.  
06 Jul 24 by member: -MorticiaAddams

     
 

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