Saturday and I'm not feeling all that great. I had a really bad afternoon and evening yesterday. I fell into this aggitated state. Everything just seemed to rub me the wrong way. I was bitchie and just plain miserable. So although I tried to do the things that I had set out to do, I gave up and did not do anything. What I did do however was eat, and eat, and eat. Something snapped and I thought if I ate enough that I could feed my anger. Really not a healthy thought process. Anyways after I had filled myself up to the bursting point, I felt sick and rather then bringing everything up I took two gravol and went to bed. That was not wise either, because although the meds made me sleepy it did not take away the ton of garbage laying in my stomach like bricks. Now the after affect of all this is I feel gross this morning, I do not want to go anywhere or see anyone. I'm lerey of even putting on my stupid dress that I am suppose to wear to this memorial thing this afternoon. I'm to the point of not even wanting to go. I don't even want to look in the mirror for fear of all the negative self talk that would come out of my mouth!!! Like something swimming in my brain right now.. Fatty, fatty 2 by 4 can't fit through the bathroom door!!! Oh how sad am I!!!
This will pass! I know it will pass! It hads to pass,!!! Sorry everyone, this is a bad journal entry! :( :( :(
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1343 kcal
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Fat: 30.83g | Prot: 38.70g | Carbs: 238.69g.
Breakfast: Margarine, Bananas, Bagel, No Calorie Sweetener (Packets), Coffee, White Sugar (Granulated or Lump). Dinner: Multigrain Wheat Thins, Italian Salad Dressing, Applesauce Unsweetened, Diet Soda, Chickpeas (Garbanzo Beans, Bengal Gram) (Mature Seeds, Canned), Whole Wheat Bagel, Blue Menu Celeb Margarine, Celery. more...
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2009 kcal
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Exercise:
Shopping - 1 hour and 30 minutes, Housework - 2 hours, Bicycling (leisurely) - <16/kph - 1 hour and 30 minutes, Resting - 11 hours, Sleeping - 8 hours. more...
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