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I feel fine, the weather is perfect, my day is filled with usefull things.
I am happy, focussed and everything is going great.
Still in the back of my mind the thought is gnawing of the impending dark days. Like the victom of a torturer i am laying in wait of the next session. Although my pain now has subsided and i feel good, i know the next period will come and there is no way for me to escape it. It frightens me, stresses me out even before it begins.
I should enjoy this quiet time, enjoy the sun shining. Exercise to be ready for the next round. Diet to be able to handle the extra foodintake next round. But i am apathetic and i freeze only able to anticipate how much pain and suffering will come this time. When it comes. And come it will...
Dutch saying:
Een mens lijdt het meest aan het lijden dat hij vreest.
translated: Man suffers most from the suffering he feers.
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Het gezegde is de waarheid. Mooi!
02 Nov 16 by member: Arabella66
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It is hard, isn't it? Trying to enjoy the present is a major achievement. Have you looked at Mindfulness? I have tried it, and I should practise it more often. It helps us to meditate on the present and let the stress and worry of the past and future pass over us and we come back to the breath. Slow breathing and relaxing parts of the body in turn. I found it helpful. You can do online meditations from here (3 minute or 20 minute): http://www.mindfulness.org.au
I hope you feel better amongst it all. You are making a better future for yourself and your loved ones as you are eating well and gradually getting better. Don't try to be too perfect. You are perfect, right now, just as you are. ❤
03 Nov 16 by member: Aussie Elise
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This site might be better: http://www.freemindfulness.org/download
03 Nov 16 by member: Aussie Elise
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