Hey, friends.
I've been off FS for quite a while but (obviously) need to return. My diet went completely off the rails. I knew that I was packing on weight, but I was in that weird state of semi-denial, living in the moment, never allowing myself to fully the face the damage I was doing by grazing and going back to carbs.
Well, I finally stepped on the scale this morning. Twelve pounds. No wonder I've been feeling uncomfortable, tired, and moody. In hindsight, going off the rails was a really bad idea. That food that I enjoyed? It was good, but it's all gone now. I ate it, experienced it, and then it was gone. But the pounds that I gained for those fleeting pleasures? They're going to hang around for a while. Also, I can't imagine that my body is very happy about yo-yo-ing back up.
But it is what it is. I'm not making and grand plans or setting any lofty goals right now. Mission #1 is to face reality, get back to tracking my food, and cut back on carbs. If I follow this simple plan, I know I'll feel considerably better in a week, probably sooner.
For my friends who remember my goal of fitting in that suit, well... I didn't. Thanks for your encouragement, though.
On a more positive note, I do have good news. DEVIL'S POCKET won the Bram Stoker Award. It was shocking and awesome. When I started writing, I never could have dreamed that I'd win back-to-back Stoker Awards. Crazy. Also crazy (and very cool): RL Stine presented my category. That was a rush.
Sorry to have been incommunicado for so long, and thanks, everyone, for wishing me well before I disappeared. I feel like I've just rolled off a steam grate and limped back into an AA meeting for the first time in way too long. Thanks for your encouragement.
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93.9 kg
Lost so far: 3.6 kg.
Still to go: 13.2 kg.
Diet followed: Poorly.
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2472 kcal
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Fat: 187.51g | Prot: 111.96g | Carbs: 48.64g.
Breakfast: Great Value Sliced Almonds, Fried Egg, Jones Dairy Farm Fully Cooked Sausage Patties. Lunch: Kirkland Signature Crumbled Bacon, Great Value Sliced Almonds, Ken's Steak House Thousand Island Dressing, Yellow Sweet Peppers, Wild Harvest Mixed Greens & Spinach Salad, Kirkland Signature Crumbled Bacon, Crystal Farms Shredded Cheddar Cheese. Dinner: Corona Corona Light, Crystal Farms Shredded Cheddar Cheese, Butter, Schwan's Mashed Cauliflower, Genuine Steak House Brand Beef Ribeye Steak. Snacks/Other: Ken's Steak House Thousand Island Dressing, Mixed Salad Greens. more...
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2626 kcal
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Exercise:
Housework - 2 hours, Shopping - 20 minutes, Resting - 13 hours and 40 minutes, Sleeping - 8 hours. more...
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Gaining 0.9 kg a Week
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