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Last night was an interesting dream. I dreamt that I visited my old workplace and standing behind the counter was a retired coworker. She was always nice to me, but other coworkers told me she was evil and used to spread malicious gossip and rumors about me. (The dean used to call me into his office every time he heard the gossip and would ask me if it was true or not. If it was true, he'd ask to hear my side of the story.) Anyhow, the lights in the building were going on and off, which made the building seem very creepy like in a horror movie. I looked at her and told her that I was about to tell her the lights were going on and off, but I figured she knew that since it's on all floors of the building. She just said that she knew that. I felt like I wanted to ask her if she had done something about it like telling someone, but I stopped myself and said nothing. I just stood there observing her. (I didn't want to, but I was just curious why she was there.) I told her she looked good and had lost a lot of...and that is where I stopped, in mid sentence. She thanked me, then I noticed I was thin too and actually looked better than her.
What a dream! I think my mind must be looking for closure from all the hurt and pain caused by the malicious gossip and rumors. None of the department heads ever did anything about it. There's really no way to tell who started it and who kept the ball rolling, so I realize there will never be any closure. The biggest thing that I noticed about the dream was that she remained very stolid and unemotional the entire time. She didn't even seem to care about the lights! I think that is exactly what I need to do. Emotionally remove myself from my job, which will help me focus on my health. My health is more important than an old building with issues. It's hard for me to stop caring, because that is how I was brought up. You do your job with completely dedication and give the extra mile where you can, unfortunately that value seems to be outdated and somehow causes a lot of jealousy. I think I'm going to have to find myself a more challenging distraction to help me move on.
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800 kcal
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Fat: 25.77g | Prot: 39.00g | Carbs: 101.90g.
Breakfast: Fried Egg, Toasted White Bread. Lunch: Keebler Club Crackers Original, Macaroni (Cooked), Lipton Noodle Soup with Real Chicken Flavor Broth. Dinner: Baked or Broiled Cod, Mashed Potato, Cucumber (Peeled). Snacks/Other: Kedem Chocolate Tea Biscuits. more...
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