It's been 46 days that I've been off to focus on my health and still struggling not to think about work. This is one of the health issues I need to tackle. Last night our lovely secretary popped into my head with her rude comments. I kept telling myself that the past is gone, so get over it. Tried to replace the thoughts with other thoughts, but the other thoughts just melted away. Then I tried reading. I read the bible and thought about how much more Jesus went through than I have. Didn't work. I read another chapter from "The Wonderful Wizard of Oz" as recommended by my psychologist. Didn't work. Finally, I told myself that is ONE person. Why am I getting upset over 1 person? Does she matter in my life? Is she always going to be there, even after I retire? Then I finally did the rebuking method. (Yes, I was desperate to get some sleep at 3:00 am.) LOL, as silly as I felt...it worked. I think I fully understand one of my other coworker's comments and that was we were both shell shocked from the treatment we received after being 2 of the few people who got to work during COVID. She's right. She also left, because she wasn't going to put up with the mistreatment any longer. I can't even imagine what my father must have gone through after the war. I just remember him as a heavy drinker and smoker when I was a child. Maybe I should start writing to get all of my internal anger and fear out.
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928 kcal
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Fat: 33.78g | Prot: 39.00g | Carbs: 118.87g.
Breakfast: Skippy Creamy Peanut Butter, Quaker Rice Cakes - Lightly Salted. Lunch: Air Popped Popcorn, Sargento Ultra Thin Baby Swiss Cheese, Sauder's Red Beet Eggs, Andy Boy Romaine Lettuce, Sunset Mini Cucumbers, Hormel Pepperoni 25% Less Fat, Kraft Light Mayonnaise, Fresh Gourmet Crispy Jalapenos Lightly Salted. Dinner: Chicken Drumstick, Zucchini, Nishiki Premium Brown Rice. Snacks/Other: Breakstone's Reduced Fat Sour Cream, Carrots, Watermelon. more...
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1939 kcal
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Exercise:
Yard Work (gardening) - 1 hour and 30 minutes, Resting - 14 hours and 30 minutes, Sleeping - 8 hours. more...
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