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I can not sleep. I am tired but I just can not fall asleep. Sometimes it is hard to turn my brain off. Thoughts keep rushing through my head. Sometimes I think I am one crazy gal. I think this weight loss stuff, over and over. I play different scenarios in my head about food to eat, what to do at the gym, what days to go to the gym and the scale. It just keeps spinning up there. I want to talk about it all the time too. I think my family is sick of listening to me. I throw up numbers of all sorts. Calories, scale, portions, gym time, weight amounts, repetitions and then all about my sore muscles. This has become so damn important that I focus on it constantly. When I am not talking about it, I am on this site typing about it. I hope I am not the only one that is like this. I pray some of my FS friends will say that they do the same thing because at 2am in the morning, I feel pretty lonely,
I have to be up at 5:30am to be ready to leave at 6:30. My parents are coming over and the 4 of us are going to breakfast and then garage/yard selling. This is not any yard sale but a 39 mile one along a road that runs through 7 cities. It should be fun. I love finding deals. I can see something beautiful out of something with just some TLC, paint and elbow grease. Even if I end up not buying, I love to look.
I hope the day of fun will bring me out of the funk I have. I just seem to be a little down and even though I have been granted many blessings from my Lord, I seem to be spending my time wallowing in a self made pity part.
May God continue to bless my FS friends,
Hugs~
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You are not alone! Bless my poor husband that has to pretend to listen intently every time a new idea, recipe, or theory pops into my head, and lord have mercy on days like yesterday when I'm feeling less than optimistic. I do tend to get a bit obsessive, but I try as much as possible to focus on other things. Right now I have two weigh ins left in a biggest loser competition and it is making me insane. I'm seriously considering only weighing in monthly after this is over. This is a lifestyle change that can only yield positive results, there is no reason to frustrate myself over how long it's taking. You have just made a few big new changes, that's why you're so obsessive. In a few months when this all becomes routine you'll go back to a more normal train of thought. I hope you got some sleep, and enjoy your day!!
02 Nov 13 by member: Annabelle3117
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Not to worry. I think many of us have gone through the same thing. Hubby is used to me jumping up after a meal and before cleaning up the dishes to enter my food or checking to see where I stand on proteins/carbs and if I can have a yogurt. I look at it as being OCD but know that I've got to enter my numbers and info. Just winging it doesn't work for me.
02 Nov 13 by member: ClassicRocker
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That's why I love FS. I can talk, obsess, fall flat on my face, biitch, share success, plan, dream, did I already say obsess?, worry, celebrate, and be proud without boring or offending others. In theory. :)
02 Nov 13 by member: waynem37
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Hi hon. Let's talk privately when you have time. I think you just need to talk some of these issues out with someone you trust and love and with someone who knows and loves you! We all have stressers in our lives and sometimes you just need to hear that you are not insane. I've said many, many times that above all else, we must live our lives and we cannot always be perfect. Call me. Love you.
Hugs.
D
02 Nov 13 by member: dmstewy
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I have many, many nights, or should I say every night, that I lay in bed, trying to sleep, and just can't shut off my brain to do so!!! I think about some of the dumbest stuff!! About when I was a kid, trouble me and my brother used to get into, recipes, work I used to do, crafting, painting the porch before winter, it goes on and on, around and around!!! Or I listen to my cpap make gentle whirring noises, adjust the nose piece so I have not even the slightest leak, lay my head just so , so I don't have the exaust blowing on the hubby, my arms, or the cat, or making noise hitting a blanket.......
You are definitely not alone!! 2 am seems to be a new bedtime for me....and I hate it!! Maybe with the time change here on sunday, I'll be back in a routine. I love being able to let off steam here, because everyone but the hubbs is getting a little tired of me jabbering all the time!! You are going to be fine!!! Enjoy your yard saleing!! I have wanted to do that one, but can never make it!! Have fun!!!
02 Nov 13 by member: pumakitten
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Hey, Phyllis! Thank you so much for the buddy invite. I might have missed it for a few days, sorry. I didn't realize it came. I just wanted to add that I think 1) you are doing STELLAR! You've lost almost 30 lbs just since August. That's GREAT. 2) I personally think we're all obsessives on here. My own gut feeling, of course... but, I do think it kind of comes with the territory. :D My little status sheet has everything on it (weight, pant size, waist measurement, fat loss; you name it). And I obsess and stare at it all for far too long, far too often. But, if it helps you to see the big picture--that weight that took years to put on is coming off in just months--then that's not so bad. I know what you mean about boring everyone around us about it... I try really hard to only tell my family when I hit my bigger milestones... but, I think for us here, we're all in the same boat. I don't find hearing this stuff from others boring at all. I love hearing where people are coming from, and seeing where they are going to, and best of all, how great it is when they get there. It is so motivating. So, please tell me anything you want to tell. I'm right there with you, and I love hearing it. I think most people on here would agree. And we all have our uncertain moments, wracked (racked?) with self-doubt. No worries. We're here for you.
Have a blast tomorrow! Best wishes.
02 Nov 13 by member: Rob.c.weiss
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You have not written lately. I've been wondering how you are. Hope all is well.
12 Nov 13 by member: Annabelle3117
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@Phyllis and @Yolanda, I was just wondering the same yesterday... I meant to ask, but got caught up in some other things. I hope you're well, Phyllis.
12 Nov 13 by member: Rob.c.weiss
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